"chaotic" lyrics

Maybe it was too loud
Maybe I was a fragile child
Maybe it's all I was taught
And maybe it's all my fault
I've tried beating the system, beating the game
I go for somebody stable, but I can't seem to stay
I'm starting to think that I find my comfort in pain

If it isn't chaotic, do I even want it?
If it isn't messy, will I feel empty?
If it doesn't stab me, is it even worth having?
If love isn't bleeding, will I even believe it?

I was loved, and I knew it
I've got scars here to prove it
I'm afraid the line is blurred
Between warmth and a burn
Oh, I'm throwing my heart like a wish in a well
I say I want healthy, I want peace for myself
But the ones that I love the most put me through hell

If it isn't chaotic (Isn't chaotic), do I even want it? (I even want it)
If it isn't messy (Messy), will I feel empty? (Will I feel empty)
If it doesn't stab me (It doesn't stab me), is it even worth having? (Even worth having)
If love isn't bleeding (Love isn't bleeding), will I even believe it? (I even believe it)

Does the love that I feel for you multiply?
The more that we argue, the more that we fight
Does the love that I feel for you multiply?
The more that we argue, the more that we fight
Does the love that I feel for you multiply?
The more that we argue, the more that we fight
Does the love that I feel for you multiply?
The more that we argue, the more that we fight