"Cavity" lyrics

I let myself submerge in dreams of distance
Months of pushing away
Feeling separate enough to say
"It must be someone else to blame"
The space in my heart spread wide with high hopes
Was the same cavity that taught me empty
Ripped open and left bare that first year
My chest exposed to the Minnesota air
So I was quick to seclude
Letting isolation be my muse
Instead of seeking you

I let my feelings choose

There's a deficit that stirs within me
Surely I need some sort of saving
When all my efforts they fall behind me
Nothing of mine will be relieving
Side by side and stride by stride
Pull me out of what my tired eyes can see
Carry me high enough to know my brother's in agony

I like to think that I think quite a bit
But that year I never thought of you
Rightful concern quickly became conceit
Every man for himself
Stay alone to avoid defeat
(Stay alone to avoid defeat)

I made survival my only focus
The raging and open sea
Fixated on my constant struggle
I didn't see you drowning right next to me
I could write a thousand songs about what I've done wrong
But this one's for what's yet to be done right
After all a "lost at sea metaphor" can teach
I still have a brother who needs me
If there's ever been a time, it's now