"OCD" lyrics

Yeah
Head spinnin' on the same cycle, let me—
Hold up, let me go again

Head spinnin' on the same cycle, let me repeat it just to check
Wash my little boys' baby bottles just to make sure they ain't sick
Is my door locked to the Lord? For the eighth time, wash my sins

Head spinnin' on the shame cycle like Jesus blood don't exist
Same flow, same pattern, am I dried up? Only 26
Did I say "Holy Spirit, speak through me" enough for this flow to be cleansed?
Everybody 'round me annoyed with me 'cause I'm askin' "do You love me again?"
Huh, can I be free again?
Got stuck, can I feel peace again?
Messed up, think about me again
Jesus can't die on the tree again
Did I overdo it? Makin' every flow stupid, did I please God or me again?
Wait, I-I, I think I said "again" too much, hold on

Feel like I'm livin' in a spaceship, I just some inner space
They said "Life is what you make it", all I make is overthink
Diagnosed with OCD, but maybe God can make it paint
If freedom is a choice, I guess I need some time to—
Wait

This is not real
It's just a dream
Please, please, wake up