"Costume" lyrics

I am who I am
When I'm alone
When nobodies watching
The secrets I keep
What nobody sees
Are what defines me
Despite good intent
It's what you do
Not what you meant to
The bar that I set

Others to keep
Can't hold myself to
Promises I make
Never to keep
Made in a vacuum
I wish I could be
Who I portray
It's just a costume

If you see me for what I really am
Would you think I'm that much less of a man?
I try to be who you think that I can
I'm scared I can't live up to that demand
My shame, my rage, my impulsivity
My hate, I blame my insecurity
I'm scared I can't be who I'm meant to be
I am who I am when I'm alone
Despite good intent
It's what you do
Not what you meant to
The bar that I set

Others to keep
Can't hold myself to
Promises I make
Never to keep
Made in a vacuum
I wish I could be
Who I portray
It's just a costume