"cartridge" lyrics

I'm not tired but I'll sleep to make my parents happy
They'll eat their words and wipe their mouths using a dirty napkin
And it won't matter what they say once I start doing taxes
And even when I'm not at school I'll always have to mask it
Might overstimulate with shows to stop thinking of passing
Get lost in cartridges and screens so I can smile and laugh I think
I'll run away but never leave my room so there's no baggage
Trust me, I don't need reminding, hide my things from the past
If that's not what you wanted then I shouldn't say that
Next time I think I'll be quiet, didn't mean to make you mad
It's just like yesterday but yesterday I wasn't as sad
I'm not a pest at least I hope I'm not, tell me if you're mad
Losing my mind over a tweet that makes me think of my dad
I know I'm not what he wanted, I know he can't try again
Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again
Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again
Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again
Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again
Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again
(Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again)
(Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again)
(Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again)
(Sorry I'm not what you wanted, I know you can't try again)