"Hell & Back" lyrics

Some days are bad, some better
I'm just tryna live without becomin' untethered
Weighed down by my trauma
Like a diamond in the pressure
I'm just tryna live life, but every day I'm feeling deader, like
Why my demons come around on a night like this
Getting mad at everything, gotta hide my fist
Everybody in my face, Hell, we'll climb like this
Never thought I'd be alone when I fight like this
Life I chose, no plan B
Never let someone tell me what I can't be
I'm the man, making moves for my family
And to me that soundin' better than a Grammy

I been to Hell and back and fell off track
I bottle up my trauma and my pain and I sell it back
Every test God give me I'll excel and pass
I know the devil ain't Theseus, so go tell him that
I've had lots, I've had a lot, so don't try to ever tell me what I got
You don't wanna be the one to set me off
I can tell they ain't about it, just talk

Used to care 'bout my spot but that always drowned me
I was gone for a minute, they'll be fine without me
Now there's nothing more important than the ones around me
They the ones that keep me sane, they the ones that ground me
Yeah, there's way more to life than tryna be famous
Yeah, you got clout but your soul been' tainted
Fake friends stackin' when you tryna be the greatest
Followers and likes, man, they're so overrated
Haven't lost, really changed my perspective
Life clicks when you never get the wreckage
I don't care about who I got less than
Only care about perfecting my message
I finally found my purpose, I know it's the furthest thing from this circus
I'm done and I'm taking my soul back right now
I feel it in, like, every word I write down
I've been gone so long, I got everybody asking me where I been
Like what I've done since, who have I become, I just gotta look within, yeah

I've been to Hell and back
But I'm still crawling out the fire
Give this all I have
I'm scared that life ain't getting brighter
But don't tell me that, don't tell me I'm gonna crash
I'm never looking back, will you put out all my flames, uh

Yeah, like does anybody hear this?
Am I alone in my pain when I feel this?
I miss the days when I used to be fearless
But now my fears been degrading my spirit
Had a loss in the family, and it really hurt me
And no matter what I do the world keeps turning
Demons see me weak so they use it all to burn me
Yeah, that's why they always wanna curse me
I just shut down, go up out of my habits
I don't leave the house, I been so nomadic
But I see my future and I know I gotta grab it
Gotta lock in, gotta write another classic
And every day I'ma pray, pray to God to give me strength
To overcome the trauma that been stuck on my way
I know we got a plan and it's keeping me sane
I'd do this all again, yeah, there's nothing I'd change (Nothing I'd change)

I've been to Hell and back
But I'm still crawling out the fire
Give this all I have
I'm scared that life ain't getting brighter
But don't tell me that, don't tell me I'm gonna crash
I'm never looking back, will you put out all my flames, uh
(Hell and back, I been to Hell and back)
(Hell and back, I been to Hell and back)