"Pitiful" lyrics

If my days are numbered
Why the hell am I obsessed
With the way we wandered
To a place I can't accept
Everything looks different
I don't recognize my friends
Why'd you make them hate me
You inspire the pain I spread

I could be mad
I could black out, relapse and go out bad
Am I to blame
Thinking we could relive it like the past
Tryna move on
Tell me how am I supposed to not look back
At what we had
I see the best in you
When you make me cry
There's nothing you could do
To change my mind

What's it gunna take
For me to finally hate you
What's the point of praying
No one's gunna save you
Love it when I beg
I'm stuck here in this ritual
You think I'm pitiful
So pitiful

Yeah and I'd be crazy to believe in us
It's been a trip straight from hell
I couldn't make it up, yeah
Still I'm scared to ever break it up
You came for love
But now it seems you got a taste for blood, yeah
This ain't no TV
I can't just turn you off, you're all around me
I would erase these thoughts but I got receipts
Just to remind me
It got so out of hand

I could be mad
I could black out, relapse and go out bad
Am I to blame
Thinking we could relive it like the past
Tryna move on
Tell me how am I supposed to not look back
At what we had

What's it gunna take
For me to finally hate you
What's the point of praying
No one's gunna save you
Love it when I beg
I'm stuck here in this ritual
You think I'm pitiful
So pitiful

I see the best in you
When you make me cry
There's nothing you could do
To change my mind

What's it gunna take
For me to finally hate you
What's the point of praying
No one's gunna save you
Love it when I beg
I'm stuck here in this ritual
You think I'm pitiful
So pitiful