"So Am I" lyrics

Well, I guess I did it, didn't I?
Took a hard left turn, I don't know what's right
Now all I can seem to do is cry
Always been that way
But it's a different kind
And I called my friend, tryna talk it through
And he said, if I still prayed, I'd pray for you
Sounds like something I could use

Everybody's wondering
Worried about my state of mind
I'm suffering, but feeling alive
For the first time in a long time
Life's hard, but at least it's mine
Everybody's wondering
So am I

I been going out all by myself
Sometimes it's fun, and sometimes it's hell
But I can't really go anywhere
Without seeing you or hearing things
Like an Oasis song at the grocery store
It took me back to the night you lost your phone
I left my cart there in the aisle and just went home

Everybody's wondering
Worried about my state of mind
I'm suffering, but feeling alive
For the first time in a long time
Life's hard, but at least it's mine
Everybody's wondering
So am I

I'm throwing my cards up and watching 'em fall
I'm throwing my heart up all over the wall
All I know is I'm somebody else now

Everybody's wondering
Worried about my state of mind
I'm suffering, but feeling alive
For the first time in a long time
Life's hard, but at least it's mine
Everybody's wondering
So am I