"I Sit In Parks" lyrics

I sit in parks, it breaks my heart, 'cause I see
Just how far I am from the things that I want
Dad brought the picnic, Mom brought the sunscreen
Two kids are laughing and crying on red swings

We look about the same age
But we don't have the same Saturdays

Did I miss it? By now, is it
A lucid dream? Is it my fault
For chasing things a body clock
Doesn't wait for? I did the damn tour
It's what I wanted, what I got
I spun around and then I stopped
And wonder if I missed the mark

So, I sit in parks, sunglasses dark, and I
Hit the vape, hallucinate a nursery with Noah's Ark
They lay on a blanket, and God damn it, he loves her
I wonder if she wants my freedom, like I wanna be a mother

But Rolling Stones says I'm on the right road
So I refill my Lexapro, thinking

Did I miss it? By now, is it
A lucid dream? Is it my fault
For chasing things a body clock
Doesn't wait for? I did the damn tour
It's what I wanted, what I got
I spun around and then I stopped
And wonder if I missed the mark

So, I sit in parks checking benchmarks
Tarryn's due in June, the album's due in March