"People Pleaser" lyrics

Jump in the water like it don't matter, I'm scared of sharks
I'll buy a painting, hang it and frame it, I hate the art
Don't lose my head when you just forget and leave me on read
I was done drinking, you say tequila, I'll buy the shots

So what does it mean? Keeps getting sadder
Was it sixteen that made me not matter?
Was it Logan or Robby, cheer captain named Carly
That made the cut deeper and messed up my body?
I'll keep being sweeter, but at my demise
Call me "People Pleaser" and damn if they're right
Damn it, they're right

Turned up the banjo, dyed my hair blonder, I got the add
Split up the moments, GRAMMYs is Mom's and CMA's Dad's
Don't lose my mind when wrong is alright, just won't sleep at night (Phone by my side)
Internalize internet lies, "No, really, it isn't so bad"

What does it mean climbing the ladder?
Was it this dream that made me not matter?
Was it drinking at parties or not getting sorrys?
Wrong ring on my finger or cosplaying Barbie?
That made me so eager to smile and lie
Call me "People Pleaser" and damn if they're right
Damn it, they're—

Right now, I just wanna scream
But that would be dramatic of me
Yeah, right now, I just wanna leave
But I guess that I'll stay
He likes me today

So what does it mean? Crying at Radnor
I just can't seem to cut out the chatter
Mmm, I'll keep being sweeter 'cause that's what they like
She's skinny, so feed her and I'll take a bite
A selfish man-eater, you're wrong, but alright
Fuck, who am I?
Damn it, they're right