"if" lyrics

If I killed myself today would you miss me
"Dry your eyes babe" she insists me
But there's no other way I can get it out
If I wasn't here would you diss me
I'll be up in heaven with a whiskey
Trying not to care when I'm looking down

I'm in the mood
I'm in a hole
And I'm thinking about you
While the walls keep spinning
I hope that you know
I'm still in love
I'm praying that I make through the day
On my own

Break break down
I won't stay down
Put my gate down
Only way out
I don't have no money, I ain't saving
I won't stay down, I ain't playing

I never meant to hurt you in the worst way
Like all the times that I forgot your birthday
I see you're doing well so I won't interrupt
I'm homeless
All night long I feel the process kick
How the hell am I supposed to process this

I'm in the mood
I'm in a hole
I'm thinking about you
While the walls keep spinning
I hope that you know
I'm still in love
I'm praying that I make through the day
On my own

Break break down
I won't stay down
Put my gate down
Only way out
I don't have no money, I ain't saving
I won't stay down, I ain't playing

Break break down
I won't stay down
Put my gate down
Only way out
I don't have no money, I ain't saving
I won't stay down, I ain't playing