"Special Different" lyrics

Hey

I'm special but I must admit
There must be something missing
Like the last puzzle piece
I stick out like a sore thumb
The harder you're laughing
So spare me your sarcasm
'Cause I don't understand it
I'm special but only good in small doses
Infantilised with a self-diagnosis
Crashing hard because I can't mask
Or pretend to be normal
So here I am a dancing monkey
On my way to the circus

Don't tell me to calm down
I was born to stand out
Special, different

I'm special but I must admit
I'm a car crash trainwreck that nobody can fix
Why can't I just fit in?
Why can't I just sit still?
Born under punches, my compulsions and depression creeping in
I'm special, good in small doses
Infantilised with a self-diagnosis
Alone again with no friends, I didn't mean to cause offence
Diluted versions of myself, and all these cracks I've got to mend

Don't tell me to calm down
I was born to stand out
And I know they call me different
And I know they call me special
But it's never spoken kindly when anybody says it
Special, different
Special, different

Why can't I just fit in?
Why can't I just sit still?
Don't tell me to fit in
Don't tell me to sit still

Special, different
Special, different