"DON'T WATCH THE NEWS!" lyrics

Yeah so
I'm good but I'm not satisfied
I miss my energy
When did I get so tired?
What would 17 year old me think of my present life?
Actually, let's talk about that another time

Wake me up with a tutorial
I'm holdin back tears in my eyes at my grandma's memorial
How to be a soft girl I've always had to be the tough guy

Think that's enough now baby
Time to cry, cry, cry

And now I'm sitting on the couch on Sunday watching Euphoria
When my middle school cousin says she has body dysmorphia
And maybe 17 year old me wasn't scared of wasting time
But now I'm 25 and can't believe an open casket's where I have to say goodbye

Wakin up with a war in mind
Cause you can't stop death and you can't stop time
How to be the soft girl when I've always had to be the tough guy

Think that's enough now baby
Need to cry, cry, cry

Listen to my thoughts
Why they sound like that?
I know I fuck you up when I'm down so bad
Always tell my mama never watch the news
But seriously
DON'T WATCH THE NEWS!

Uh
I know I said let's talk about that another time
But it don't feel right to stay quiet
17 year old me is tired
Been using her as my alibi
2 different shoes, roll a cigarette, smoke it in the booth
And yeah I been blowin up
Motherfucker I'm still confused

I woke up, broke out of my mind
Death can be beautiful and if you let it, so can life
Tough girls can be soft girls sometimes
So I wake up and if I wanna cry, I'll cry
Cry, cry, cry