"October Thoughts" lyrics

Never really noticed
That this world was so damn cold until I got older
When I finally felt your love, the chip was on my shoulder
Before I hold a grudge, I hold my tongue 'cause I'm a soldier

I shouldn't be on drugs or be in a club but I'm indulging
Shouldn't be throwing back shots or nothing, these hoes know they got a motive
Fuckin' the bros, I wouldn't touch none of them hoes without a Trojan
When them bitches just want the glory from you, they'll expose you

I been getting deep in my bag, they thought this shit was over for me
I got 10 mil, waiting on me, any day of the week, I don't wanna go to sleep
Flooding streets, I remember that shit just was holding me back and I wanted to leap
I was down bad, went back to the 'Raq, had to find myself where they name me G

Almost lost it all, got it all right back 'cause none of that shit ever made me weak
Look at my eyes, you can tell I was made for this, used to think it was make believe
When I wake up, gotta chase that paper, I ain't even take no days to grieve
Ain't got room to wear no feelings, I'm putting APs on my sleeve

And I do this shit right here, I don't care, I swear, I dare a nigga to play with me
Point anywhere, get sprayed for me
My crew drench, we paint the street
Youngin on S, I make 'em squeeze
Teach a nigga that, like it's ABCs
Got way too much J on me
One of these tennis like 80 Gs

Spent a millie on white 'n rose 'cause I don't like police making me freeze
Too many rats, my circle got closed, and plus, ain't no nigga making me cheese
Havin' my way, I been hitting the road, I notice the bad bitches hate when we leave
Might send them front row at all my shows, it's a quarter more when they pay me in threes
Big ski a real P, break her, make her scrape her knees
I got fleek she like "Baby, just appreciate me, please"
I'm in a league that's out they league, I'm balling like an athlete
Living legend, let the young nigga break my records after me

Like the Ghost supposed to
They was going to sleep, I shook this shit up, woke the culture
Who can fuck with me? I'm Big G LaCosa Nostra
G Herbo
Trials 'n tribulations, life been like a roller-coaster
Taking drugs for the pain, close to overdosing
Just now clicking in my brain 'cause I'm never sober
Feel like I might go insane, now you coming over
For what?
Plenty questions still unanswered, it might bring us closer
And I know that's why you drag me every year October

Every year October
Every year October, every year
Every year October