"Not All Scars Bleed" lyrics

(You don't gotta- gotta change)
(You don't gotta- gotta change)

Trapped in my mind, everlasting, I don't know where to go
Always reminded of the sins I've atoned
They creepin' in, when I'm alone
The Devil been draggin' me right down below
Back in the day, used to really want fame
Til' I got it, now I want to escape
Want every night with the ones I lost man
Been beggin' the Reaper to call my name
Closin' up the casket it's tragic, feel like blastin' myself
Every time I look in the mirror it's shame, wish I was somebody else
Coffin lid, creak, I sleep, under all my regret
Pillowcase smell like gunpowder, load a gun by my head
Tears burn like a sip from the cup
I could relapse but it won't be enough
Take off my mask and swear you'll see nothin' but misery callin' for help from above
Why even try when nothin' been workin?
Feel like I'm losin' my mind and my purpose
Peace of mind only thing I couldn't purchase
I'll never know what lies under the surface
Finally got rich, got all that I need
But pain in my soul makes it harder to breathe
Trouble that I keep locked away
It's trauma that'll never leave
No, I don't fear death, I live it
These memories I'm missin'
More time, yeah I've been wishin'
But I don't get it
Talk to the grave, like it's all I know
The names on the stone a piece of my soul
Whenever I'm low, I take time to visit
It's all that I got to still feel close
I'm scared that as time goes on, I'll forget their voice
Don't wanna forget the face, gone in the void
I'm still holdin' on as long as I can
But sometimes feel like I don't got a chance
(Oh-oh-ohh, oh-oh-ohh-ohh)
(Oh-oh-ohh, oh-oh-ohh-ohh)