"Atlas" lyrics

You were
Only searching for love
Only found it in drugs
Get no love from the world
Get no help from above
I'm awake on my own
Never sleep in the dark
I think I'm losing myself
I think I'm falling apart
I think you're crying for help
What am I gonna do
I would help if I could
I think you know that it's true
And it wouldn't be hard
If we'd been friends for a year
But a decade and a half
I just wish you were here

Now we're 13 and you're up around it
Now we're 16 and you're all about it
Now we're 23 and you can't live without it
I hope you live to see 30 but I fucking doubt it
So I lie and say that I don't give a fuck about it
Grab another bottle and I fucking down it
Don't let them see the way I feel on some poker shit
I'm just tryna heal, quit telling me to get over it
There ain't no way of getting over this except for separation
I'll find a way to handle it
Fighting hesitation cause I know you faced abandonment
Couldn't watch you becoming a picture on my mantle, shit
We both know that's how it's gonna end
Stumbling around OD'ing on kolonipin
And that was four years ago it's only gotten worse since
I told you it would kill you if you ever fucked with heroine

We haven't talked in year I hope you get better
From I what I hear you're barely keeping yourself together
Got a couple homies hooked, you fucking trend setter
Fuck my ex and expect me to say that it's whatever? Look
It's comforting to know you're still alive
I hope you turn it around, I hope you live your life
Just know I understand I never wondered why
I just miss my friend he's been gone for a long time