"Happy Again" lyrics

I was twelve years old first time we got in introduced
And my bedroom was just painted red and blue
We stayed there for hours, we danced and we shouted
To our song
Yeah we promised that we'd always stay forever young
Said we'd be the ones who never fall outta love
You were my first taste of having a safe place
To call my own

But the older I got I forgot who I am
Without you, yeah I don't have a clue

I'm tired but no one can tell
Been smiling so hard that I've worn out my health
'Cause I reached out for heaven but crashed into hell
I fell so hard for you that I fell out of love with myself
Don't call it the end, we will talk when I'm happy again

Don't get me wrong you're still the only one I see
But you somehow trigger all my insecurities
To always put you first will push my heart to burst
Like shattered glass
I don't want to but I have to set you aside
'Cause when I wake up you're the first thing on my mind
You won't be replaced but I just need some space
That I've never had

But the older I got I forgot who I am
Without you, maybe you did too

I'm tired but no one can tell
Been smiling so hard that I've worn out my health
'Cause I reached out for heaven but crashed into hell
I fell so hard for you that I fell out of love with myself
Don't call it the end, we will talk when I'm happy again
So please try to listen and stop tryna fix it
If we keep our distance we might end up closer again