"Beauty In The Darkness" lyrics

I haven't written for a minute I fell off the map
Seeking out a train to somewhere I can never catch
Spending time away from people don't know how to act
Moved away from home I always said I'm never going back
A friend of mine just lost her father to a heart attack
Never met the man, but stressing was a part of that
Finding happiness is tricky, proving hard to track
Beauty in the darkness and that's always been a part of rap
Beauty in the darkness that's always been a part of rap

Speaking out on touchy subjects hoping you can pardon that
Each emotion you can bet I got a scar for that
Paving through the pain that I have seen and find a bar to stack
The most relief I ever feel is when I start a track
Once I finish that I'm slipping back into a room that's black
One of the difficult things that I'm dealing with is envy
I got some guilt and some shame that I find I carry with me
I look around and see all these people who driving Bentleys
Feeling different than 'em and wonder sometimes if heaven sent me
To bring the pain to the surface I know that they're neglecting
Went down to Sunday service hoping I could find a blessing
Try to talk to God, but I got scared to open up his message
Losing sleep over asking if I have his acceptance

Moms a Christian my dad was always an atheist
Asking questions was never really a place for this
I turned to rap while the rest of the world was angry
With dealing with homophobic and racists with no emotion
I hate to say that I'm hopeless, but at the rate that we're going
Our race is soon to be over
Consuming and then disposing
With no respect for the oceans
God dammit the country's broken
We're dancing with drinking potion
The answers under our noses
Here's a reminder of something nobody sees
It's not guaranteed that we'll wake up after we fall asleep
My heart is deceased must of left it stuck in a beat
How are we fighting in this moment when we're lucky to breathe, please
I just don't understand
I just wish I could extract the love I feel from my fans
Reach my arms around the world and try to give out a hand
To all the people who gave up and only needed a chance

I see you slipping I can tell that you've been haunted
Thinking you been lost, but I know where your heart is
Tell me why, tell me why is your heart guarded
Can't you see all of the beauty in the darkness
I see you slipping I can tell that you've been haunted
Thinking you been lost, but I know where your heart is
Tell me why, tell me why is your heart guarded
Can't you see all of the beauty in the darkness

Show me, I see you slipping
Show me, thinking you been
Show me that there's beauty in the darkness
Show me, show me
Show me, show me
Show me that all the beauty in the darkness