"Confident Soul" lyrics

Three hours ago
Just got off the phone
I heard that your doing well
I've been on the road
And picking up smoking

Lights on, no one's home
That's been the joke
But now I just don't even laugh
I drink wine to cope
To avoid the moment

Now I'm face down in the bathroom
And I'm thinking back to when I had you
Put a smile on till the curtains close
It'll be the first year since last May
That you didn't wish me happy birthday
And I'm falling back into the hole

I know you mean well
But I'm going through hell
And I'm trying to pick up the pieces that fell
From my confident soul
Where did I go?

I remember that fight
We were up the whole night
You were picking me apart don't you lie
I said it's the drinks
You said it was me

But when did you ever really even hear me
Walking on the egg shells I held
So carefully placing my feet
We slept in the bed
With tears on the sheets

Now I'm face down in the bathroom
And I'm thinking back to when I had you
Put a smile on till the curtains close
It'll be the first year since last May
That you didn't wish me happy birthday
And I'm falling back into the hole

I know you mean well
But I'm going through hell
And I'm trying to pick up the pieces that fell
From my confident soul
Where did I go?