"Am I There" lyrics

I've been silent, I've been waiting
I've been bitter while I've been chasing pavements
I won't pretend that you're the holy one no more
Even if I can't proclaim it
Even if I can't seem to speak your name
We all know how to call that spade a spade
And a bitch knows how to dig

Now I'm without you
Can't pull me in
I finally got you outta my skin

So am I there?
When you close your eyes
Do you see me every time you try to get to sleep at night?
Am I there?
When you see the light?
And I hope it keeps you up 'til the day you die

You keep playin' the victim
To anyone who'll let you, anyone who'll let you talk
But you just love to twist it
Anything to get you, anything to get what you want

Now I'm without you
Can't pull me in
I finally got you outta my skin

So am I there?
When you close your eyes
Do you see me every time you try to get to sleep at night?
Am I there?
When you see the light?
And I hope it keeps you up until the day you die

You got moved
You get served
And one day you'll feel the hurt, and
I promise from the bottom of my heart
You won't get what you want
Just what you do
It's just what you deserve

So am I there?
When you close your eyes
Do you see me every time you try to get to sleep at night?
Am I there?
When you see the light?
And I hope it keeps you up until the day you die