"Ruin" lyrics

I've been thinking 'bout skipping this town
Because I'm someone you don't need around
And I know it feels like love right now
But eventually I'll just let you down
Trouble follows me down every lane
Self-sabotage is my middle name
I'm a bonafide shit hurricane
And I'm terrified that I'll never change

When the truth is I'm scared
You're all I wanted

I've lost so many people in my life it's fucked with my head
I go and start a fight so I can lose it again
Oh why oh why am I so terrified of letting you in?
You're the one thing in my life
I don't want to ruin
I don't want to ruin

I've crossed the line about a hundred times
I sober up then apologize
But these Demons here they're here for life
You're too beautiful don't waste your time

Because the truth is I'm scared
You're all I wanted

I've lost so many people in my life it's fucked with my head
I go and start a fight so I can lose it again
Oh why oh why am I so terrified of letting you in?
You're the one thing in my life
I don't want to ruin
I don't want to ruin
I don't want to ruin
I don't want to ruin

Step one I was freaking out
Step two feeling better now
Step three if you stick around
I promise I'll never let you down
Step one I was freaking out
Step two feeling better now
Step three if you stick around
I promise I'll never let you down

I've lost so many people in my life it's fucked with my head
I go and start a fight so I can lose it again
Oh why oh why am I so terrified of letting you in?
You're the one thing in my life
I don't want to ruin
I don't want to ruin
I don't want to ruin
I don't want to ruin

Step one I was freaking out
Step two feeling better now
Step three if you stick around
I promise I'll never let you down