"Backbone (It's Not Over)" lyrics

I need a backbone
Wanna remind myself that I can dig out of this hole
I need a way home
Do what I do but I don't want to have to do it alone
I need to stay awake
So I can take all the time that I need
I need a backbone
I need a backbone

Cause I know that when I break I'll go deeper
I won't scream and I won't whisper
Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower
Cause when I crack it's not over
Can't shut down, I stay open
24 hours for one moment
Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower
Cause when I crack it's not over

I'm on the defense
Trying to save myself from going straight out of my mind
Don't know what hell is
But if I did I'd probably know half the people in line
I had to will myself to pass the test
And prove that I'm not too broken to let go
I need a backbone

When I break I'll go deeper
I won't scream and I won't whisper
Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower
Cause when I crack it's not over
Can't shut down, I stay open
24 hours for one moment
Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower
Cause when I crack it's not over

I'm so hard on myself
Cause I'm too afraid to fail
Keep my heart on a shelf
Till I'm capable of bending

I'm so hard on myself
Cause I'm too afraid to fail
Keep my heart on a shelf
Till I'm capable of bending

Cause I know that
Cause I know that

Cause I know that when I break I'll go deeper
I won't scream, I won't whisper
Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower
Cause when I crack it's not over
Can't shut down, I stay open
24 hours for one moment
Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower
Cause when I crack it's not over

When I break I'll go deeper
I won't scream and I won't whisper
Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower
Cause when I crack it's not over