"Shade" lyrics

I caught a train
Just to watch suburbia begin to fade
As the night begins to swallow up the day
A cupboard mouse, the house that built me
Also wilts me like tall flowers in the shade

I saw your name
On a billboard for the fortunate to claim
On a sign to sweat the evil from my veins
Bygones should be long gone
But the thought of us still covers me in the shade

And in this life you've shown me
I've never known me
I've given all of that away
And in the times I hold you
I should've shown you
How much of me needed to stay

I'm wide awake
I hear my gecko catching crickets in its cage
I hear my neigbors arguing about their day
I know a part of me is lost
I know to them, I'm worth the cost of saving face

I hear your name
From a friend who left with nothing else to say
I'm a guest until I clean the mess that I've made
Bygones should be long gone
But the thought of us still covers me in shade

And in this life you've shown me
I've never known me
I've given all of that away
And in the times I hold you
I should've shown you
How much of me needed to stay