"Not Ready" lyrics

[?], hey, yeah
You never leave me, no
Now one, now two, now three, four, here we go

Let'' just be honest, Jesus, I'm a mess
Can't seem to fill this void of emptiness
My bills are paid, but I'm still stressed
I need You, I need You
Trying to medicate and dull the pain
Can't hush these voices in my brain
Singing songs to silent sounds of shame
I need You, I need You

But if I tell the truth, I'm so afraid of truth
But I know it, and You know it

I know I need to pray, but I don't know how to say
I'm not ready, I'm not ready to change
I wanna trust in You, but if I told the truth
I'm not ready, I'm not ready to change

Stuck in between what was and what could be
I'm so afraid to lose the image they see
I don't even know what's happening to me
I need You, I need You

But when I face the facts my feelings aren't facts
And I know it, yes, I know it

I know I need to pray, but I don't know how to say
I'm not ready, I'm not ready to change
I wanna trust in You, but if I told the truth
I'm not ready, I'm not ready to change

Sometimes I feel like I, like I gotta hide
I just don't get why You stay with me
'Cause my faith and my trust are waverin', waverin'
Maybe it's all my pride, it's hard to surrender
When I've been pretending to have it together
But I feel like my world is falling apart
Just need a minute, just a second to catch up
I know I'm not finished, I just can't seem to get up
Help me remember all of the plans that we made
When we were both on the same page, on the same page, oh

I know I need to pray, but I don't know how to say
I'm not ready, I'm not ready to change
I wanna trust in You, but if I told the truth (Oh)
I'm not ready, I'm not ready to change

What if I tell the truth?