"Past Tense" lyrics

I've always hated credit scenes
They remind me all my favorite things
Have an ending
Mm, mm
And then I start to overthink
And I spiral on eternity
And it sends me
Mm, mm

Deep into a tizzy 'til I'm nice and dizzy
Like "Am I enough?" (Am I enough?)
Am I on the cusp of everything I can be?
Know that it sounds campy
But it's keeping me up

When my "now" turns into "was"
Will I be proud of who I have been?
When my skin's all wrinkled and rough
Will I be proud of who I have been?
When I know how it all happened?
And I'm talking in past tense

When I'm gray and medicated
Just to keep my heart from fading
Don't want to hate the retrograding
Wanna be proud of what I've made
And all the stories that I'm saying
'Til the bittersweets all I'm tasting
I can feel my body wasting
But the thought of the end
It doesn't send me

Deep into a tizzy 'til I'm nice and dizzy
Like "Am I enough?" (Am I enough?)
Am I on the cusp of everything I can be?
Know that it sounds campy
But it's keeping me up

When my "now" turns into "was"
Will I be proud of who I have been?
When my skin's all wrinkled and rough
Will I be proud of who I have been?
When I know how it all happened?
And I'm talking in past tense

Seconds to minutes to hours to days
Then I turn around and it's been a decade
Don't want to focus on the things I'd change
Now, I'm motion-sick, watching time fly away
Seconds to minutes to hours to days
When my time's been spent, it's all purchased and paid
I don't want to focus on the things I'd change
Just want to be happy with who I became

Seconds to minutes to hours to days
Then I turn around and it's been a decade
Don't want to focus on the things I'd change
Now, I'm motion-sick watching time fly away
Seconds to minutes to hours to days
When my time's been spent, it's all purchased and paid
I don't want to focus on the things I'd change
Just want to be happy with who I became

When my "now" turns into "was"
Will I be proud of who I have been?
When I know how it all happened?
And I'm talking in past tense