"Play This At My Funeral" lyrics

(JB made this)
(Julioo!) Alright

My mom was an addict and pop wasn't there (He wasn't), trust me, I still ain't care
My stepdad came and showed me the ropes and he died and it's messed up, ain't it? I know (I know)
I know how it feel when your house supposed to be a home and you feel like it's nowhere to go
I know how it feel when you try your hardest all year and you still got nothin' to show (Trust me, I know)
I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody, God had to prove me wrong (Had to prove me)
I never thought I'd be able to jump on stage and people'd know my song (On God)
I spent twenty-two years in this world, I'm hopin' I still got twenty-two more on the clock
My lil' sister is nineteen, just had a baby that nobody told me about (Nobody told me)

My calls been goin' to voicemail, how I'ma call on you when you never can answer?
As soon as my life goin' good, it seem like another person diagnosed with cancer
Nobody told me that kids like me who grew up with ACEs die way faster
So maybe I'm already cooked (Uh-huh), it feel like my life a disaster (It feel like my life a disaster)
It feel like I'm cursed or trapped in a cycle of life where I never could win (I never could win)
I'm used to the hurt, I'm trapped in a cycle of pain where it never could end (Never could end)
I've been on the other side, nobody told you the grass ain't green as it seem
I gotta go hard, the burdens of all my brothers been livin' through me (They livin' through me)
I do it for all my homies and most of the people who told me I couldn't (Said that I couldn't)
I help anybody that I can, I know they ain't do it for me and I shouldn't (And I shouldn't)
I'm showin' my dog a whole 'nother way to this life and it do feel good
As long as they smilin', I'm happy, they ask would I change it? I wouldn't

My mom was an addict and pop wasn't there (He wasn't), trust me, I still ain't care
My stepdad came and showed me the ropes and he died and it's messed up, ain't it? I know (It's messed up, ain't it?)
I know how it feel when your house supposed to be a home and you feel like it's nowhere to go (It's nowhere to go)
I know how it feel when you try your hardest all year and you still got nothin' to show (Still got nothin' to show)
I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody, God had to prove me wrong
I never thought I'd be able to jump on stage and people'd know my song
I spent twenty-two years in this world, I'm hopin' I still got twenty-two more on the clock
My lil' sister is nineteen, just had a baby that nobody told me about (Nobody told me about)