"pain on my mind" lyrics

Pain
Yeah, yeah

God on my heart, pain on my mind
Sanctification is taking its time
They feeling weak when temptations arise
I been in sin since the day I arrived
Spirit is willing but flesh is so weak
Life is a vapour, the air is the vine
Wonder why Adam took apple from Eve
I hope my fruit is securing the vine

Since elementary fighting the lust
Mom gave me drive put it right on the bus
Ride home and I would get right on the Hub
Dopamine like I was lighting it up
I know the Pastor he tell me it's wrong
But me and the homies keep cutting it on
Daddy don't teach me 'bout birds and the bees
And even the term is absurd as can be
Pastor keep talking about purity which made desire inside me feel dirty
Ironically that's the same word they use when they flirting
So now I'm confused is it good or disturbing
A verse said it came with the curse that would hurt me
I pray for forgiveness, I hope that He heard me
And what make it worse, heard it in person
And then did my dirtiest down at the church

God on my heart, pain on my mind
Sanctification is taking its time
They feeling weak when temptations arise
I been in sin since the day I arrived
Spirit is willing but flesh is so weak
Life is a vapour, the air is the vine
Wonder why Adam took apple from Eve
I hope my food is securing the vine