"family and friends" lyrics

He said
Things I couldn't remember
Four days into December
For the ghosts to enjoy
He said
That I'd never be able
To put my heart on the table for
Somebody to eat
He said to me "you can't escape
Or chase the boredom away"
While the chorus started
Dancing in a round
He said I had nothing to say
Asked me are you frozen
Are you even human
Are you even real

I'll be singing pleasure and pain
Try everything I can
Run inside all the names
Is that what you meant
Let me forever lie in bed
Blessed by family and friends
Starting life at the end
Is it even real?

If I
Ever cradle my belly
Stepping into the fantasy
Will I wanna go back
In time
To the infinite center
In the womb of my mother
Is the chorus so loud?
They said to me "you can't escape
One life into your name
Chase a path you won't take
Dancing in a round"

I'll be singing pleasure and pain
Try everything I can
Gods on chariots say
Is it what you want?
Let me forever lie in bed
Blessed by family and friends
Starting life at the end
Maybe it's okay