"Home" lyrics

I feel aches in my bones, I lost track of the time
A few drinks for my soul, I've been wandering blind
I'll always come back home, I'm singing
I'll always come back home, now and forever

I feel aches in my bones, I lost track of the time
A few drinks for my soul, I've been wandering blind
I'll always come back home, I'm singing
I'll always come back home, now and forever

I learned home is more than just a destination it's a feeling
Something I had so confused while focusing solely on making a living
I think the saddest thing is when you look in the mirror an the person you see is a villain
I'm blaming all of the anger inside of my soul my character slowly been switching
Like what was I missing? I knew that money would not make me whole
I was tryna live fast 'cause my black heart healing too slow
You know the phrase that without the rain there isn't a flower that ever would grow
But over the years collecting my tears I think it's too much I'm 'bout to explode
Punch a couple tickets for the ride, dreams always blind you to the lies
Searching for a place I couldn't find, bloodshot eyes what a shame
Told you all this pleasure lead too pain, lost inside the valley of the shadow of death tryna find another way
I'm good, at least I keep telling myself, I don't need no one for no help
Just follow this north star 'til I'm home, an everything's back how it felt
Back when I'd sing you these rap songs 'til we both fell asleep on couch
Was home there wasn't a doubt, I'm saying

I feel aches in my bones, I lost track of the time
A few drinks for my soul, I've been wandering blind
I'll always come back home, I'm singing
I'll always come back home, now and forever

Yeah, I'll always come back but shit just feel different it's not quite the same
I know it's my fault the dream I was chasing has drove me insane
Like I've been trying to focus more on the present instead of the things in my brain
But everything's easier said than done when you not the person who's goin' through pain
Won't change but I try, people that I loved switching sides
Maybe I'm not cut out for this life, crosses on my heart hope to die
Almost turned the pages letting go, sometimes true recovery is slow
I keep fighting battles from within, I think where it's leading me is home, I know
I know I just know, windows down it's almost 20 below, this cigarette is goin' straight to my soul
I pour up some liquor it's making me sicker but I got some shit that's caught inside my throat
So bottled up from being stuck on my own, the paranoia of somebody who's broke, I'm stumbling over all the words that I wrote
Deep breath sweating in my palms, I can hear the chaos when it's calm, as if everyday is just a song
I knew my direction had to change, something that I never could explain
Six string playing on repeat, only thing that's ever kept me sane, it's why

I feel aches in my bones, I lost track of the time
A few drinks for my soul, I've been wandering blind
I'll always come back home, I'm singing
I'll always come back home, now and forever