"White knuckling" lyrics

Hey there, stranger at the bar
I knew your number once by heart
I analyzed it, every part
While you stared at the ceiling

Shouldn't have to be this hard
Just two dogs fighting in the yard
And long before we fell apart
I had a feeling

You were bored
When did you get bored?
Used to call me "pretty"
Now you call me "yours"

I could tell a white lie
Say that it doesn't cross my mind
Act like everything's fine
When we both know this isn't working anymore
You don't even want me
But you can't stomach to let me leave
You're not doing a thing
So, hunny, what are you white-knuckling me for?

I'm not yours
I was never really yours
You don't want me like before
I'm not yours, I'm not yours

Hey there stranger, love of mine
Can't even look me in the eye
Every excuse you've bled it dry
Your petty crime for no remorse

What an awesome fucking dude
I was so dumb for loving you
Method actor, climbing ladders
Selling dreams I can't afford

I still don't know what for
You deserve an Oscar
All you got's a dumb Grammy Award

I could tell a white lie
Say that it doesn't cross my mind
Act like everything's fine
When we both know this isn't working anymore
You don't even want me
But you can't stomach to let me leave
You're not doing a thing
So, hunny, what are you white-knuckling me for?

I'm not yours
I was never really yours
You don't want me like before
You're a coward, now I'm sure
Now I'm sure

I'm not yours
Got it all, but you want more
Rip the bandaid, cut the chord
Broke my heart so that means war
Now I'm sure, now I'm sure

I'm not yours when you need somebody to call late night
When you find out what loneliness tastes like
When you realize I'm all you had before
I'm not yours

I'm not yours
'Cause a bird don't fly on the ground
Spent way too many years with you holding me down
Couldn't see it back then
But I'm positive now
I'm sure
Now I'm sure
I'm not yours