"Still Standing" lyrics

Pushed headfirst into the world
Just to be thrown in the street when you dressed like a girl
An angel in the snow
Accident prone

You left your suitcase by the bed
Like you needed to know you could go whenever you wanted
And I'm out on my feet
But I am still standing

At the top of the stairs, turning red
Pound for pound in a prom dress
You tried to make me afraid
We were both shining
Feeling indifferent, wearing black
Sometimes I want you back
But not today

I found her bleeding over the sink
But when you said sorry, you were looking at me
I can't remember what I said
But I didn't mean it

I wasn't too young to understand
I just didn't think it was so bad
And it wasn't in a way
And now there is nothing
Your back to the ocean, burning red
I can't imagine you dead
But you are every day

Thank you for everything