"rotting with the moon" lyrics

And I hated myself ever since beige went in my veins
And my heart no longer melts
Cause you're not here saying my name
I'm calling out for help
But it's my fault that I'm in pain
About time that I am done with this, relieve me from my-
I hear your harmony, my love
When I'm alone under this moon
And it comforts me enough
Feelings of warmth
Visions of you
I'll stay sober for us
Even if death stand at my door
About time I make a jump for it
Please heal me from this suffering
Heal me from this suffering

I don't wanna die
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna be who I am
I just wanna love
I just wanna cry
Need a bit of lightning from the sky

Help me
I need some guidance home
God, if you hear me
I'll reap what I've sewn
Don't leave me alone

And I hated myself ever since beige went in my veins
And my heart no longer melts
Cause you're not here saying my name
I'm begging them for help
But it's my fault that I won't change
About time that I am done with this, relieve me from my-
I hear your harmony, my love
When I'm alone under this moon
And it comforts me enough
Feelings of warmth
Visions of you
I'll stay sober for us
Even if death stand at my door
And it's time I make a jump for it
Please heal me from my suffering