"Amnesia" lyrics
When I wake up / motivation
Doesn't give me any sensation
I get so sidetracked from the things
That don't even matter I'm saying
Gotta realize that I'm not gonna
Please every single person in my life
I can be so difficult to deal with
Harm my body just to cope and to pass time
Put my shoes on, walk outside and
Got my fake face on, I'm alright then
Go about my day till the pain kicks in
When I'm home I'll be drowning in some bourbon
I'm sorry, let you down
Made a promise can't keep then I relapse
Self loathing, no denying
I'm my own worst enemy, I hate that
I have to tell myself won't always be this way
I take substances so I can numb the pain
I've done things that I'm not proud of, I admit
I wish I had amnesia so I could forget
Imagine if I become
The person that I dreamt of once
I'd be happy and you would too
I'm not a mistake, I promise you
Putting up with all the nonsense
Why my thoughts gotta be so toxic?
Anything that makes me feel uncomfortable
I'd rather not cross with
An illusion I created
If it doesn't fit my narrative
I will think you're untrusting and start doubting
Well that's not imperative
Grab ahold of accountability
Nobody gonna change what I need
Sit around, complain, drink away my pain
But the next day still gotta deal with
I'm falling, keep crawling
I'm running outta time, I know that
Forget I'm in control
Let the negativity choose my path
I have to tell myself won't always be this way
I take substances so I can numb the pain
I've done things that I'm not proud of, I admit
I wish I had amnesia so I could forget
Imagine if I become
The person that I dreamt of once
I'd be happy and you would too
I'm not a mistake, I promise you
Wake up, wake up
This is not a dream
Face my demons
In reality
Call me whatever
Just don't call me up
When you need me
'Cause I've had enough
(Yeah) I have to tell myself won't always be this way
I take substances so I can numb the pain
I've done things that I'm not proud of, I admit
I wish I had amnesia so I could forget
Imagine if I become
The person that I dreamt of once
I'd be happy and you would too
I'm not a mistake, I promise you
Doesn't give me any sensation
I get so sidetracked from the things
That don't even matter I'm saying
Gotta realize that I'm not gonna
Please every single person in my life
I can be so difficult to deal with
Harm my body just to cope and to pass time
Put my shoes on, walk outside and
Got my fake face on, I'm alright then
Go about my day till the pain kicks in
When I'm home I'll be drowning in some bourbon
I'm sorry, let you down
Made a promise can't keep then I relapse
Self loathing, no denying
I'm my own worst enemy, I hate that
I have to tell myself won't always be this way
I take substances so I can numb the pain
I've done things that I'm not proud of, I admit
I wish I had amnesia so I could forget
Imagine if I become
The person that I dreamt of once
I'd be happy and you would too
I'm not a mistake, I promise you
Putting up with all the nonsense
Why my thoughts gotta be so toxic?
Anything that makes me feel uncomfortable
I'd rather not cross with
An illusion I created
If it doesn't fit my narrative
I will think you're untrusting and start doubting
Well that's not imperative
Grab ahold of accountability
Nobody gonna change what I need
Sit around, complain, drink away my pain
But the next day still gotta deal with
I'm falling, keep crawling
I'm running outta time, I know that
Forget I'm in control
Let the negativity choose my path
I have to tell myself won't always be this way
I take substances so I can numb the pain
I've done things that I'm not proud of, I admit
I wish I had amnesia so I could forget
Imagine if I become
The person that I dreamt of once
I'd be happy and you would too
I'm not a mistake, I promise you
Wake up, wake up
This is not a dream
Face my demons
In reality
Call me whatever
Just don't call me up
When you need me
'Cause I've had enough
(Yeah) I have to tell myself won't always be this way
I take substances so I can numb the pain
I've done things that I'm not proud of, I admit
I wish I had amnesia so I could forget
Imagine if I become
The person that I dreamt of once
I'd be happy and you would too
I'm not a mistake, I promise you
