"Beautiful Hell" lyrics

I can't recognize myself
The venom has taken control
Lost in this suffocating hell I call home
Deliver me

My grave, my peace haven
My shelter, my asylum

A rain forest
Too much explored
A holy grail still unheard of
Years spent crawling in the jungle
Left me with nothing but indelible scars

Poison ivy in my backbone
Propagating on its own
Inhaling the steams
Of my self-ignited blaze
No way out from this maze
I'm lost in this beautiful hell

If this daydream is all that I have
I'll turn it into something beautiful
I'm trying to see through the haze
Is it a monster or a miracle?
Let me tame the sour taste
Let me tame the bitterness
This is my way to escape
I'm lost in this beautiful hell

A stranger to myself
Lost in someone else's tale
Blurry sights and bones exposed
A single celled parasite
Sight of endless rivers
Sights of millenarian trees

Help me find the difference
Between truth and fantasy

My air, my asphyxia
My venom, my dementia

So please come with me
We can hide in my chrysalis
Safe from the trials and tribulations
Together we'll learn how to tame the poison

If this daydream is all that I have
I'll turn it into something beautiful
I'm trying to see through the haze
Is it a monster or a miracle?
Let me tame the sour taste
Let me tame the bitterness
This is my way to escape
I'm lost in this beautiful hell