"Pain From The Inside" lyrics

Young nigga with a yo-yo, never thought I'd sell coco
Mummy done your best, man, you raised us on your solo
Six times I done the calendar, pops shoulda patterned us
Gambling my life but I ain't never been a gambler
Mummy tried hide the pain but I can feel it, and I can see it
I found the streets, I got deep in
Watching crack cook, trapping and I'm banging in a mad hood
I didn't know where my dad was
Tough love, coming up was fucked up
Mum took us granny's and they judged us
Fourteen for the anny, serving in the alleys
We the black sheep of the family
We was resilient, doing deals for half a million
You heard about my life and how I'm living it
They say my music's depressing, I rap about oppression
Growing up, I watched domestics
Violence, been arrested by the Trident
I caught cases and stayed silent
Wouldn't talk if they paid me, I'm a different gravy
I got it off the rock like Jay-Z
White and bobby, Hatton tings, hella dotties
But I got murder ink like Irv Gotti
Remember when there weren't no options
Now my Dior tee terry cotton
I really came from the bottom

I shoulda done it different
How am I banging and I'm going prison
My family came here for a better living
Get you whacked off a hand gesture, locked up like Mandela
Chain on, I feel like I'm letting out my ancestors
I'm sorry, stunting for these chicks, they don't love me
Committed sins, living comfy
Had shootouts at nigga's country
I done the devil's work for this money
I've prayed with lifers, I know God loves a trier
Allah, save me from the hellfire
My money's dirty but my heart's clean, got niggas that will blast for me
If I don't make it Jannah, ask for me