"Survivor's Guilt" lyrics

Akh, you used to be my nigga, you woulda been right here
But why you say that shit in court, man, you weren't even there
When I think about my man, used to be my people
Wait till I see you, you bit my hand, man, shit, I used to feed you
I remember falling out with the bros dem
Bro came, linked me with the same stick I sold him
Ever been in boot outs and had to buss it back?
I remember seeing bro at the door and his lungs collapsed
When shh went shh, we was thirteen
He was big bro and that shit fucking hurt me
Had to watch a ambulance take my guy
So much pain, man, but boys don't cry
Shoulda taught me the realer way
But they taught me meet them by the river way
I know they feel a way, shoulda taught me the realer way
But they taught me meet them by the river way
My OG's wanted to stick me
And when I think about the bing, G
I feel like I was down and niggas kicked me
Darks through me weight 'cause he knew I flew straight
Trapping in that rain, all I wanted was a chain
I was in the trenches tryna get rich off ten tenses
Then he went jail and it all ended
Young nigga, hungry nigga, thirteen, fourteen
Took my big homie, gave him IPP
Them times I was rocking fake drip, Dapper Dan
Climbed up in them ranks
Bayo made me eat, never did I bite his hand
Doing my little thing, got that phone to ring
Biggie said I can make more P's with him, I don't know where I woulda been
Coulda jumped ships but I never snaked the ting
Alex showed me how to slang
And Millz told me when I stack a thirty, spend a bag
My older bro told me stack so, shit, I can't forget
When I call Matty for a skeng, he said I should make these P's instead