"Heartless" lyrics

You said I'm acting different but brought it up casually
Cause you know confrontation scares the living hell out of me
And we talked through our options but I didn't see any
Cause my dream it's always been right here in Music City

And when my dad was helping me pack as I was crying
He asked, are you sure?

And I felt heartless, I felt selfish
Like maybe I'm making a mistake and I can help it
Maybe I should stay, maybe I'm crazy
For trying to push myself out of my limits
You didn't hurt me, nobody's screaming
I'm simply putting a box in a backseat
Holy shit, just cause I'm leaving doesn't mean I won't have regrets
Or that this breaks my heart less

I know I did the breaking up and I should really own it
But I don't think I'm even allowed to be sad for a moment
But I've been crying for weeks straight
Trying to convince myself I'm okay
It'll get easier one day, won't it?

And I felt heartless, I felt selfish
Maybe I'm making a mistake and I can help it
Maybe I should stay, maybe I'm crazy
For trying to push myself out of my limits
You didn't hurt me, nobody's screaming
I'm simply putting a box in a backseat
Holy shit, just cause I'm leaving doesn't mean I won't have regrets
Or that this breaks my heart less

And how narcissistic of me when I was the one who chose to leave
When this should be about you and how you constantly prove that you were too good to me

And I'm so heartless, I'm so selfish
You say I'm making a mistake and I can help it
Maybe I should stay, maybe I'm crazy
For trying to push myself out of my limits
You didn't hurt me, nobody's screaming
I'm simply putting a box in a backseat
But holy shit, just cause I'm leaving doesn't mean I won't have regrets
Or that this breaks my heart less