"THEN / NOW" lyrics

These days, these dates feel like auditions
Said, why can't these women just act like themselves?
Rewind, keep replaying these visions
Way back before the distance
I'm putting myself through hell

Said, it's 50/50 on how I'm coping, I'm chimney smoking
Ollie poppin' more oxys 'til I fade out of focus
Balling off of these drugs, I'm triple-double dosing
How I'm standing in place and going through the motions

Finally found some peace in all my solitude
That's something you should probably do
Walking through these parties like it's nothing new
Sick and tired of dapping strangers like, "What's up with you?"

If I knew then what I know now
Wouldn't have let you down, but
If I knew then what I know now, yeah
Wouldn't have stuck around, said
If I knew then what I know now, yeah
Wouldn't have let you down, but
If I knew then what I know now, yeah
Wouldn't have stuck around

Bipolar rollercoaster
Implode like supernova
I'm rolling up the Yoda
High for months, I'm never sober

But the woes I sing
Pay the tabs I drink
I been gone too long
Time is flying past me

Why we fighting on vacation?
Drinking on my medication
It pours every time it's raining
I force a smile, but I can't fake it

Trying not to space out, crash out
Pollock when I splash out
Burdens burning, trying not to cash out
Praying

Put it to my temple for some peace of mind

If I knew then what I know now
Wouldn't have let you down, but
If I knew then what I know now, yeah
Wouldn't have stuck around, said
If I knew then what I know now, yeah
Wouldn't have let you down, but
If I knew then what I know now, yeah
Wouldn't have stuck around