"Can We Watch Something Happy?" lyrics

The knot in my throat hasn't budged since I was five years old
Five things I can touch
Five things I can hear
Five things I can see

One more time
Mom, I don't want to die
One more time
I pray everyday, but it won't go away

If I didn't do anything, why do I feel so guilty?
Mom, I don't wanna die
I'd deal with the devil if I thought I would be fine
One more time

If I'm scared of myself, shouldn't you feel the same way too?
Can you make me better?
Can you make me holy?
If I didn't do anything, why do I feel so guilty?
Can you make me better?
Can you make me holy?
Can you save me?
So I can feel it fully?

God, please forgive me
One more time