"hurt myself" lyrics

Maybe if I hurt myself, you could be the bandage
I don't want to ask for help, you call it baggage
I can't lose my mental health 'cause I never had it
If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself

I learned love was destruction
No truth and no discussion
Felt so safe in the chaos
Fuck, I think I was brainwashed

My tears are just like dust you sweep under the rug, yeah
My fears, my blood would teach me how to love

And now watch me as I try and breathe underwater
What if I just killed my fathers daughter?
What if I wore my trauma like a badge of honor?
You'd see me, yeah

Maybe if I hurt myself, you could be the bandage
I don't want to ask for help, you call it baggage
I can't lose my mental health 'cause I never had it
If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself

I'm dying for attention
You met me with aggression
And promised me protection
Funny how it works out like that
'Cause now I'm your projection
Use your love as a weapon
You'd think I'd learn my lesson
So why do I run back?

Watch me as I try and breathe underwater
What if I wore my trauma like a badge of honor?

Maybe if I hurt myself, you could be the bandage
I don't want to ask for help, you call it baggage
I can't lose my mental health 'cause I never had it
If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself

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Maybe if I hurt myself
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If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself
If I hurt my, maybe if I hurt myself