"the apology i'll never receive" lyrics

Ooh, ooh

I know it's unexpected, just give me a second
I need to say sorry for the things I did to you
When you were younger, to you and your mother
If only I'd have known back then the damage it would do

I've watched you fight with addiction and struggle with commitment
I couldn't help but think of you as a thorn in my side
But drew my affection to teach you a lesson
Oh, what a waste of our time

But there's no knock on my door
There's no please can we talk
No sorry for all of the pain that I caused
We're not sat in my kitchen with quiet forgiveness
I thought you would find your way here, but you didn't
I'll write myself the apology I'll never receive

Ooh, ooh

Too young at eleven to learn of deception
Standing on the doorstep, you were screaming on my name
The day I got married, I know you were angry
But that's a conversation I'm not brave enough to face

So I kept you at a distance, watched you try to fix it
See the pain written on your face, it reminds me of her
It's hard to remember all our years together
And I hate how it hurts

But there's no knock on my door
There's no please can we talk
No sorry for all of the pain that I caused
We're not sat in my kitchen with quiet forgiveness
I thought you would find your way here, but you didn't
I'll write myself the apology I'll never receive

Ooh, ooh
I'll never receive

I can't keep on waiting for you to say sorry
All of the anger has poisoned my body
If you ever listen to this song I've written
I want you to know you're already forgiven