"disarm me" lyrics

Tiny vessels, tight like strings
Tryna keep my heart from feeling properly
I hate this part of me
Gaining light but losing sleep
Where to hide when I'm my own worst enemy
It's hard enough to breathe

'Cause if it's up to me, I swear
I'll start a fire to watch it burn
I'll pull the trigger just so I can feel it hurt
It's all me
I'll kill the lights to lose you in the dark
And pull the rug out just so I have stuff to sing about

So can you disarm me
So I don't destroy us, please
Baby, disarm me
So I don't fuck this up
So I don't self-destruct

There's a voice stuck in my head
Telling me that if I let myself in love
My art will all go numb

And then it's up to me, I swear
I start a fire to watch it burn
I pull the trigger just so I can feel it hurt
It's all me
I kill the lights to lose you in the dark
And pull the rug out just so I have stuff to sing about

So can you disarm me
So I don't destroy us, please
Baby, disarm me
So I don't fuck this up
So I don't self-destruct

I'm trying to live and learning to let go
I swear, I swear it, love
I don't wanna miss, or worse never know
What this is, I swear it
I'm trying to live and learning to let go
I swear, I swear it, love
Lo-o-o-o-ove, hmm

So can you disarm me
Baby, disarm me
[?] yeah, that's nice