"Loner" lyrics

I use to beg people to believe in me
Instead of cutting me so easily
So tired of hearing what I need to be
I'll ask the mirror what it sees in me
I never thought that I'd be broken in two
The moment that your heart opens you lose
Pressure bust pipes it was supposed to make diamonds
The more I think about it the more I think about violence
Looking through the Bible for a verse I can relate to
Romans 12:2 never let world change you
You start to hate yourself when you realize how it's made you
I tell Savannah I hate you

Tell me what have I become and why am I so numb
Why am I so mad at everything I've ever done
Lately I've been taking shots, but this pain, it never stops
I've got scars all on my heart, they called it love, I know it's not
I am a loner
I am a loner

Sitting in the room with the lights low
Both of my eyes closed
Searching for that fire 'cause I never felt so ice cold
Music used to be my therapy
Now it's the only thing that's tearing me
Apparently
I ain't strong enough to fight the battles that it brung to me
Dreams turned nightmares, look at what it done to me
You think it's fun for me living in this freak show
All I do is give and give but then they need more
The shot I always prayed to get wasn't a free throw
Now my fuckin' souls got a peep hole

Tell me what have I become and why am I so numb
Why am I so mad at everything I've ever done
Lately I've been taking shots, but this pain, it never stops
I've got scars all on my heart, they called it love, I know it's not
I am a loner