"Nebraska Bricks" lyrics

And I grew up
On alcoholic evenings
And slow jazz music
To keep my heart beating
Because after all that happens
In a dissolving family
The need for a song to sing me to sleep still rings true
And I always knew that there wasn't glue strong enough
To sew these roots together
And now that I've wasted too many years
And I've lost track of where I started
I have to dream at night of who I was and why
After twenty years of marriage
I am what is left and I'd like to go back now
And make myself up
Because I'd be a brick so I wouldn't feel
And I'd lift myself up
I'd throw myself at this house
To break windows, smash walls
Just to keep time where it was and where it should be