"Stability" lyrics

'Cause there's no stability in this situation
I don't know what you're thinking
I don't know what you're feeling
I don't think that you want me
I don't want to have to deal yet
I don't see what you're seeing
Now you're just a regret

And I don't want to
Squander this beautiful mess
We made, and I played
Along, but I have to see what's next

I know that life came fast at you
And you weren't ready yet
But I can't wait any longer
While you aimlessly wonder
I know you really want me
But I don't want have to pretend
That I don't have reservations
Because of past events

And I don't want to
Squander this beautiful mess
We made, and I played
Along, but I have to see what's next
In this life, and I'll try
To let you down softly but I
Have to be real with myself
'Cause it's the only life I get