"targeted individual" lyrics

I always knew something wasn't right
Everydays a struggle everyday I lose a fight
The more I climb I stay at home and hide
Hide from my mistakes and hide from everytime I lie
Actually I think it's kind of funny
I was struggling with money then I spent it all
I guess it's fine I always pay my rent on time
Self preservation and destruction it's a blurry line

Every morning I roll my boulder up the hill
It gets to the top and then it falls right back down
I feel like I'm drowning
Pills got my drousy
Yesterday I walked outside and I forgot my housekey
Look outside my eyes get darted I think that they found me
Creepin' slow I think they gon' surround me
I keep it moving maybe this is just a bad dream
Why the fuck are all the cameras looking at me

I always knew something wasn't right
Everydays a struggle everyday I lose a fight
The more I climb I stay at home and hide
Hide from my mistakes and hide from everytime I lie
Actually I think it's kind of funny
I was struggling with money then I spent it all
I guess it's fine I always pay my rent on time
Self preservation and destruction it's a blurry line