"Pure" lyrics

Used to do it all so pure
For the love of the song no more
Now I think about an applause
When I open my mouth
I've abandoned my emotions
I've isolated myself
When I see my mother in pain
Wish I could feel what she felt

And I don't know
What this all means
What this all means
It don't feel like me

And sometimes I get insecure
So I wear a dress on the town
Hope a man notices me
I don't know, it makes me proud
I get jealous and I
See myself in my sister's eyes
At least she can have a good time
At least she can calm down

And I don't know
What this all means
What this all means
It don't feel like me
And you won't give me the deal
I wish I was real
I wish I was

I think about it all the time
What I've been doing with my life
'Cause when it calls me back again
I hope it meant something
I hope it meant something

I've been losing all my friends
Stepping up onto the ledge
Thinking I can be an angel
But keep falling instead
Find it hard to stay connected
When I wanna feel protected
So hold me, won't you?
Just hold me 'cause

I think about it all the time
What I've been doing with my life
'Cause when it calls me back again
I hope it meant something
Oh
I think about it all the time, no
What I've been doing with my life
'Cause when it calls me back again
I hope it meant something
I hope I meant something

I don't know the meaning of
Anything in this song
Just wanna feel special
I just wanna feel