"Disconnected" lyrics

I don't wanna do it now
I don't wanna go outside
Been falling, been falling
Tell me that it's all my lies
Think about it all the time
Been falling, been falling

Yeah, sick of comparing myself
Drive to get air for myself
I haven't slept in 2 days
I should take care of myself
So unaware of myself
At times I stare at myself
And hate the person I see
It's like I'm glaring at hell, cuz
I'm always ruminating
Always felt disconnected
Why can I not escape these
Thoughts that I keep on dreading
My minds constantly racing
I try to the intercept it
I wish someone can save me
Cuz I see where I'm headed, yeah
But thats my life tho
Drowning in muddy waters
I need a life boat
Always felt misunderstood
I don't know why tho
Always shutting the world out
Guess that how I cope

My phone, doesn't ring
Late night, little flings
Don't result in real things
Hovered over the sink
Always get what I want
But ignore what I need
Yeah I'm getting these checks
No one checkin on me
But I'm living my dreams
Contestant stress that it brings
Jealousy in the air tonight
Jealously what it breeds
It ain't all what it seems
Family don't even clap for me
But when they all down bad
They hit me up to get a stack from me
Yeah yeah yeah
Crazy how it is, people be feeling entitled to this
But they weren't around, while I was down
They got there hands out, I give 'em a fist can
Spot out a fake, just leave out some bait
And then pull it back as soon as they take
You will be amazed, by all of the snakes
That you catch in this bitch

Wasted time, every time I trying
You don't lie? that's a lie, I can tell
Can't disguise who you are all that well

I don't wanna do it now
I don't wanna go outside
Been falling, been falling
Tell me that it's all my lies
Think about it all the time
Been falling, been falling