"They Don't Even Know" lyrics

They don't even know, I'm dealing with trauma, it's become a part of me
They don't even know, I have PTSD, a pain that'll never leave
They don't even know, that my heart doesn't beat, I'm tryna find a remedy
They don't even know, that I could hardly sleep, because I see you in my dreams

Always see you in my dreams, I think I need to wake up
I just wish I could move on, kuz I don't wanna stay stuck
The voices in my heads loud, they never seem to stay shut
Overthink till I can't sleep, paranoid so I stay up
Always lost in thoughts again
Showcase my pain to my audience
Watch me rise till I fall again
Hate my mind cuz it's fraudulent
Always swimming in doubt
I can't ever get out of it
Women want me for clout
Now I'm raising my walls again
Biggest fears is blowing up
Before reducing my trauma
Cuz all that added stress
Will only add to the problem
I gotta, lotta money
It doesn't fix anything
I want someone to love me
Cuz, then that would mean everything
Always feeling high, then I'm feeling down again
Tryna find the source, don't know what the problem is
Why am I alone, lost the ones I started with
They don't even know, that I'm getting tired of this

They don't even know, I'm dealing with trauma, it's become apart of me
They don't even know, I have PTSD, a pain that'll never leave
They don't even know, that my heart doesn't beat, I'm tryna find a remedy
They don't even know, that I could hardly sleep, because I see you in my dreams

My left arms filled with tattoos
When really those are just scars
I got them during bad moods
Or whenever life was hard
Always used a distraction
From all the pain in my heart
Never found satisfaction
From getting paid for my art
It's a ridiculously trade off
That only seems to worsen
Cuz money doesn't pay off
When you're a broken person
It' hurts when, some people think
My musics, music it's self
When really it's my diary
I literally cry for help
I'm overlooked, I'm disregarded
I'm Insecure, I'm broken-hearted
I feel unsteady, the pressures heavy
I'm getting tired, of being artist
Need rehabilitation
A reset from all of this
I'm at the point of breaking
When's the end to all of this

Always feeling high, then I'm feeling down again
Tryna find the source, don't know what the problem is
Why am I alone, lost the ones I started with
They don't even know, that I'm getting tired of this

They don't even know, I'm dealing with trauma, it's become a part of me
They don't even know, I have PTSD, a pain that'll never leave
They don't even know, that my heart doesn't beat, I'm tryna find a remedy
They don't even know, that I could hardly sleep, because I see you in my dreams