"HER (Demo)" lyrics

How to get a flat tummy in two weeks? This is impossible...

Why do I try so hard? Why can't I like my body?
Why do I pick it apart? It's been so kind to me
Why am I so mean to it?
Why's it matter if I'm not perfect?
Who knows what perfect even is?
I think I've been here before. It feels like deja vu.
The first time I was called fat by someone just like you
I was twelve years old
Do you know what that does to you?
Ah-ah-ah

When I got in the shower, I couldn't see my toes
So I left every dinner early to let it all go
And I tried chewing gum and running every morning
And hid my little belly in baggy clothes

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her 'til she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was
And we'd go run outside and play for hours in the sun
And I'd tell her all about the woman that she will become
And I'd say you're so much more than just a body that needs measuring
So instead of counting calories, you can count on me

I'm just so sick of this, all the targets and schemes
We're stuck in a matrix that makes us hate our bodies
I'm getting older now
I thought I worked through all this
Why's it matter if I'm not happy?
Who knows what happy even is?
I think I've been here before. It feels like deja vu.
The last time I was called fat by someone just like you
It was yesterday
Do you know what that does to you?
Ah-ah-ah

When I walked in my bathroom, I always checked my weight
And the first time I did that, I was only eight
And then I tried to hurt myself because I hated what I saw
And my mind was never a safe place

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her 'til she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was
And we'd go run outside and play for hours in the sun
And I'd tell her all about the woman that she will become
And I'd say you're so much more than just a body that needs measuring
So instead of counting calories, you can count on me

No more skipping breakfast
No more skipping lunch
No more waking up for another endless run
'Cause I can't bear to see you lose yourself, little one
(Ah-ah-ah)

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her 'til she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was
And we'd go run outside and play for hours in the sun
And I'd tell her all about the woman that she will become
And I'd say you're so much more than just a body that needs measuring
So instead of counting calories, you can count on me